Tuesday, November 29, 2005

I need a few oppinions for a Bible paper that I have to write. The first one is this: Is cremation consistant with the Bible? Why/Why not?The second is this: well, I actually can't remember the second one but when I do I'll ask it.This paper is due tomorrow so any comments would be much appreciated. (yeah, I know I'm a procrastinator... that's life)Don't you just love good moods:DWell, I've got a ton on my mind and I really want it off my mind so I can start thinking about more than just this one thing all the time. It's bothering me!! Oh well, I'm still in a good mood:D Exept there was a girl in vollleyball who kept beeing stupid. I was holding 3 balls in my hand (volleyballs, you sick-os!) and someone threw another one at me and I couldn't catch it because I was already holding 3 and then she started yelling at me because I completely accidentally let the ball roll onto the basketball players side. It was so dumb. It's actually kinda funny because it was just so dumb. lolI wish was sleeping right now...
"He was always telling us to get down and shut up","Get down, shut up!" Gotta love that Forrest Gump!
oh yeah!
I remembered the second question!!!Here is is... How were people saved before Christ came and saved us????Any comments would be of great help! Thanks!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I hate misscomunication.....
Ok, I am a person that will not tell a soul if someone tells me a secret unless the secret is harming them (like that are suicidal or something). Well I thought that a friend (we'll call him Jim) had a crush on my other friend (we'll call her Suzy.) Actually, everyone in the world thought Jim liked Suzy. I simply stated to Suzy that I thought Jim liked her. A little while later, Jim told me that he likes Suzy. Suzy continued to ask if Jim liked her and I continued to say "I think he does." Never said, "oh yeah, he told me that he likes you" or anything. So Suzzy mention to Jim that a while ago some people had hinted to her that Jim liked her. Well apparently I was that only one who Jim told that actually knows Suzy. So the only logical conclusion for Jim would be that I am the one who told Suzy after he told me he liked her. So he is mad at me and won't talk to me and won't trust me and I am really sad because I HATE it when people are mad at me! I don't know what to do! I called and left a message and appologized for what I didn't do, but he wouldn't pick up......

So I quit the volleyball team. It made me really sad to do it, but I couldn't committ to it 5 days a week. It was too much. I now help the team out and will go to all the games and not actually play. I don't have to go to all the practices, so it works out ok. I miss being on the team. I had the best time last year. I felt like I was a part of something. The coaches are calling me the team Manager. It actually makes me sound more important than I really am to the team. Whatever..

I love life so much, but I can't handle it when people are mad at me!

Saturday, November 12, 2005

My most missed memory

If only I could go back to when I was a child
and Ben and Sarah and I had no lives exept for each other
and we could run and play without a care in the world
summers were spent bikeriding and swinging
winters were full of snow and snowballs
we didn't have jobs to get in the way
and we didn't have boyfriends or girlfriends
only each other
and we were happy that way
funny how the only thing I could think of was how I wanted to grow up

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Today sucked. I was bombarded today with several "fat comments" and one person in the drive through told me that I looked gross. Why on earth would someone find that ok? Why? It's not. If only they knew how it was killing me so. It's killing me. So today I spent the day angry at the world. Yeah, people suck. But at least I have God. He's never said anything aweful to me.
I wrote this earlier....
I'm so sick of people that have to judge me about every little thing! People can really be jerk and I am really getting down about it! So I'm fat... so what? Get over it! So I suck at algebra.... get over it! So I cann't sing... get over it So I'm butt ugly..... GET FREAKING OVER IT! Do you think I don't know? That when I look in the mirror I don't see a beached wale? Do you think I don't want to cry when I see myself? Do you think it helps me any to tell me? Does it help to tell someone else? Does it help to make fun of me when you think I'm not watching? Guess what... I am, and it kills me to hear you say it. You're killing me! If only you knew.....

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

I took the plan test today.... I think when I get it back it's just going to say one thing... "haha, you might as well drop out of highschhol now because you're frickin retarted." I feel so dumb after taking the dang test. It's not even important or anything, but I feel dumb because I didn't know one single question on the science.... not even one! I feel so unsmart.
Anyone ever feel like everything you want is too far out of reach? ( I don't know who anyone is, but that's ok) Like everything you work for is always going to be 3 feet away? Or like you're following the footsteps of someone whose feet are too big to fit? I know I do. I feel like a small child whose feet are inside of the shoes of a "grown-up" and they are way too big to fit my feet and i'm walking around and tripping and wobbling because I can't walk right. (obviously this isn't literal because my feet are so dang huge) Does that make sense? Probly not, but whatever. When I have more time I will explain more.